Every day I pray

Sometimes I sit and think about everything that has happened to me, because it's not that easy you see, for me to put the past behind me. Even though I've tried to get it out of my mind, then I find myself hurting inside, due to the fact that I had almost died, when a woman tried to poison me, after she had end up beating me. Then a few years later a man had raped me, then shortly after that another had molested me. I thought that I was going to lose my sanity, but God, He was watching over me, and every day, every day I pray, because I know I wouldn't be here today. I had a hard struggle in ife, but I put up a fight, it wasn't time for me to see the light, because God was with me every day, every day of my life, and still is, and every day, every day I pray that He will be with me all the way. I know He will I have faith, you just got to believe in God, and believe in yourself, and everything else will be okay. I never thought that I will make it through the things that I've been through, it was a nightmare, and so many times I was scared, but I knew God was there and watching over me, and every day, every day I pray, that I continue to live my life the right way. I don't want to go another day with the same pain, and tears running down my face like rain. I want to change my life, I shoudn't have to keep paying the price for what has happened to me. I just want to be free and live my life in peace with my family, and God continue watching over me, and every day, every day I pray, that God will bless me to see another day, and good things come my way. And just to see the smiles on my children faces, makes me smile with grace, and every day, every day I pray, it's time for me to stand up and say, I'm not going to let this ruin my life another day, and keep blaming myself for what has happened to me. Because what I feel is real, there are days I went without having a meal, causing myself to be ill, but the thing is, people never really understood how I feel. This was something that I had to deal with from the time I was a child, until the time I was grown. But, you would have thought, that after everything that I've done to myself, that something was wrong, but it was left unknown. But every day, every day I prayed that God will help me find my way, and here I am today, living my life, with God watching over me and my family.

Thank you Father, for always being there for me. And I just want to say to every one out there, believe in yourself, and in God.

I love you, and may God bless you.

Forgiveness

Sometimes forgiving is a hard thing to do, especially
depending on the amount of damage that was done to you, or what it is that you’ve been through. Some people take days, weeks, months or years to forgive, but that’s okay, because sometimes forgiving can be very emotional and sometime seem impossible, because the pain was just too unbearable. But I know from my own experiences that when I came to terms with forgiving those who have hurt me, it was only then that I was finally free. Because holding it in only drives you to a place where you don’t want to be, and that’s nothing but a life of misery. And revenge, that’s not the key, ‘cause then you’ll find yourself in the same predicament as those who have hurt you.  Although it seems that some don’t deserve forgiveness or even second chances, you have to remember to be the better person, no matter how hard it is, your key to live is when you truly forgive. For we can’t undo what’s been done, we can only move on, and moving on means letting go, and letting go, is only then that your heart will find forgiveness.

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 These tears I cry.